Is it wrong to be opiniated?
Is it wrong to know what you really want to do, what you want in life?
Apparently, in my beloved country I am in, people behave very badly towards the people who knows what they want. And its like an infection whereby it slowly seeps your energy off and leave you weak, or lets say, too weak to fight. It is like a losing battle.
Good on you if you do not care about other people's opinion. I want to live a life filled with 'ignorance is bliss' but you know i know we all know that this will never ever happen because human were born SAM PAT to begin with.
And here's the story of how I quickly lost my sudden "let's get the ball rolling and make people stand up for what they want" to become "Yes master. I will not fight you..."
Why PEOPLE in general can drown me out? Simple!
Only ONE ME (myself lah) against 'the others' (definitely more than one).
Culture: Its a taboo to curse and say inauspicious things during CNY! (Really? See my Facebook friends, they curse like hell and still I see them being happy) and the whole world suddenly starts standing up and say "oi, don't curse curse in front of the children ah, you %^&!!"
So, at the end of the day, we 'learn' from some "PEOPLE" some 'things' that will ultimately change us again.
No wonder why most Malaysians don't know how to make a stand for themselves lah. After all, our society is like that, "Eh, don't do this lah. Eh, don't say like dat lah... Later kena tangkap baru u tau ah..."
Wah, when I say "get lost lah" oso will kena tangkap ah?
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Broader Perspective
A friend and I were discussing a lot on the aspect and the very aesthetics and essence of being a human being.
What is tolerable? Good qualities and moral values?
YES and NO at the same time.
Remember, we were never born equal.
You may disagree with me, but I believe in karma although I like to exploit the concept a little and douse some people with gasoline and light a match. But I can never bear to throw the match. And all these are metaphorically speaking of course, I don't even dare to touch a raw piece of chicken drumstick let alone burn a person alive.
Anyway, this is my 2 cent's worth on the subject.
Jen: What do you think should all human being have?
Me: Anything that a human being could possibly have.
Jen: I mean, like the qualities... Good, bad, etc...
Me: Wah.. Very hard to decide leh. Got good, got bad.
Jen: Choose lah!
Me: Nah.. Let them choose to be who they wanna be. So what about you since you popped the question?
Jen: A person should be honest, trustworthy, responsible, loving, caring, understanding .......... (and the usual oh-Mr. Mc. Dreamy quality)
Me: Definitely doesn't sound like a human being to me. Definitely not.
Jen: Thats why I asked you about your ideals.
Me: Oh.. Like this ah? Why don't we let them be as imperfect as they have always been?
Jen: eeeyer... U ah.. I don't understand you la. Stand up for the rights of another human being but still want them to be like this. Aiyo.... Make your stand clear!
Me: If i can do something to help, I will. If I can change myself and I really want to and put effort to do it, I will achieve it. But if something is beyond my control, I let Him decide. And I do not preach about my religion like many other people like. So, you happy now?
Jen: Whatever lah. I hate people telling me about religion la. Really lah, tell me what you hope to be ideal in this world?
Me: Everyone can grow to be about the same height and stop there. Then we can really see the difference with the same yardstick. Happy or not?
Jen: Don't want to talk about this already la. You like such an imperfect world. My feet is big, nose is fat and flat...... (usual self-criticism carries on for 5 minutes)
Me: (Rolls eyes) I also have the same problem ok......
Jen: At least your hair is straight and your skin is good.... Not like me.. Acne
Me: At least you don't have half the world hating you and taking advantage of you and then call you fat. You're stick thin, something they like..
Jen: My legs are too bony...
Me: Let's just come to a conclusion lah
Jen: Ya. I hate myself.
Me: I guess I am hating myself too (mumbles to self 'because I cannot tell you straight to the face about your problem, I am frustrated... grrr....')
Jen: Har??!
Me: Nothing la. Just reprimanding myself for not being able to do something.
Jen: Good. Keep it up. One day you will realize your mistakes and deal with it
Me: (adui...)
From this lenghty conversation (words modified a little but storyline is still the same) I saw something I didn't see before...
Myself in the past. Always arguing with 1001 other idealistic and pessimistic people. Our different thoughts.... I always wanted to live in this priceless utopia where only happiness loomed everyday and cursed my wretched life for being cursed. And needless to say, it really felt wretched and broken, shattered and cursed.
But after getting a very understanding person like Matt, I began to see things in a different light. It was more like, "You must make a decision on your own. Must make sure what you do, you will be able to bear the consequences". I remembered what Ernie once said, "whatever choice you make, there will be consequences" and Annie told me (my little student), "no decision is also a decision, right teacher?". Mash these two together, one from a serial entrepreneur and another from a young 8 year old child. I saw something I never saw before.
"Do not sit on a fence. Make a decision and face it. Either way you take, there are consequences"
You are darn right!
And apparently, I have been wasting 22/23 years of life just trying to decode something that was tough but yet, always in front of me. What the hell is equality? What the hell is fairness?
Nothing in this world is fair. But of course, it all boils down to our personal characteristics and the way we handle a situation. Sometimes its like the times in our class where our teacher will hand us a 'situation' and we are supposed to resolve the issue. it is also like this. You don't know what will come. Some, because of your mistake/decision and most of the time, it happened because of another person's action.
You are defined by the way you handle the situation itself. If my friends do not believe in my ability to do A, B and C, I have a choice of walking away and give the middle finger (my ultimate favorite but naaah. Got past that already), I can stay and convince them with words and do nothing after that. Or show them what I am worth by providing the needed 'results'. And so far, I guess I want to maintain the positivity of the outcome of my actions. And yes, you get alot of sick and jealous people trying to 'doubt' and 'cast dark shadows' unto you and your ability because of inferiority complex. But would that really matter in the long run, if you are good? Not really! After all, they might be just a tiny speck of dust. And whoever say that everyone in the world likes Oprah Winfrey and whoever said that everyone in the world hates Simon Cowell?
We have different things in life. Live life well. Love each other. Help if you can. Say thank you and give credits to those who did their part to help you. Encourage each other. Give before you receive. Trust yourself first before giving trust to others. And trust others first before you expect them to trust you. Understand other people's way of life, differences in cultures and expectations.
Give before you receive. Ask if you do not know. Help another person if he or she does not know what to do. Ask what you can do for the world instead of asking what the world can do for you (Thanks Puan Gracie for this memorable phrase during the wonderful days in IJ Convent JB. Hope ur recovering well). Love everyone like they are your flesh and blood. Look out for one another. Stand up for your friends if they are righteous. Pull them aside and slowly explain to them their mistakes if they have done something wrong. Do not humiliate others in public. You will never know that one day this person will wind up being your boss/your child's teacher/ or whoever who has the power to do it unto you like how you did to him. Be courteous, help anyone who needs help and expect no help in return for expectations will make you hungry for recognition, which in turn makes you bitter and unhappy.
Treat human beings as human beings. To err is man, to forgive is divine. Do not overload them with YOUR IDEALS and YOUR EVERYTHING. One day you will realize that everyone will start dressing like you or end up backstabbing you because you always acted like a little emperor and show off that you are the best in town. It doesn't work (-.-)'''
Our life is a big experiment. We meet many types of people. Those who are upright good and righteous. Those who are conceited and selfish. Those who are foolish and gullible. Those who are too kind-hearted. Those who are soft and easily bullied. Those who are weak. Those who are incompetent. Those who do not want to work hard. Those who are big bullies and tyrants. Those who thinks either too highly or lowly of themselves. Those who gambles their life away. Those who are evil and unforgiving. Those who are loving and adoringly lovable.
We can choose to be anything we want to be. We can use what others 'bestowed' upon us back unto them as revenge is always something sweet. But can our little hearts take the consequences of our actions?
It is always that little part of 'conscience' in our hearts that will remind us that we've gone too far. The voice within that will keep us on the right side of the bed, do something that we will not regret and that one little part that reprimands us for doing something wrong. Without that part, we are nothing but a nation filled with bloated and sleeping people.
Decision is in our hands and in every decision you make (be a boss, be an employee, be a housewife etc), there are bound to be consequences of our actions. Step up to it, brace yourself and go through that one hurdle. Once you've passed the first mark, the following ones becomes easier. Practice makes perfect.
Be a human being. Make mistakes. Learn from mistakes. Forgive one another. Don't forget all the things you did, especially wrong and bad ones. And anyway and anyhow, just lead your life where you know that you can just leave at any time because you have no more regrets in life for you've done all you can and the little voice in your heart says "peace".
What is tolerable? Good qualities and moral values?
YES and NO at the same time.
Remember, we were never born equal.
You may disagree with me, but I believe in karma although I like to exploit the concept a little and douse some people with gasoline and light a match. But I can never bear to throw the match. And all these are metaphorically speaking of course, I don't even dare to touch a raw piece of chicken drumstick let alone burn a person alive.
Anyway, this is my 2 cent's worth on the subject.
Jen: What do you think should all human being have?
Me: Anything that a human being could possibly have.
Jen: I mean, like the qualities... Good, bad, etc...
Me: Wah.. Very hard to decide leh. Got good, got bad.
Jen: Choose lah!
Me: Nah.. Let them choose to be who they wanna be. So what about you since you popped the question?
Jen: A person should be honest, trustworthy, responsible, loving, caring, understanding .......... (and the usual oh-Mr. Mc. Dreamy quality)
Me: Definitely doesn't sound like a human being to me. Definitely not.
Jen: Thats why I asked you about your ideals.
Me: Oh.. Like this ah? Why don't we let them be as imperfect as they have always been?
Jen: eeeyer... U ah.. I don't understand you la. Stand up for the rights of another human being but still want them to be like this. Aiyo.... Make your stand clear!
Me: If i can do something to help, I will. If I can change myself and I really want to and put effort to do it, I will achieve it. But if something is beyond my control, I let Him decide. And I do not preach about my religion like many other people like. So, you happy now?
Jen: Whatever lah. I hate people telling me about religion la. Really lah, tell me what you hope to be ideal in this world?
Me: Everyone can grow to be about the same height and stop there. Then we can really see the difference with the same yardstick. Happy or not?
Jen: Don't want to talk about this already la. You like such an imperfect world. My feet is big, nose is fat and flat...... (usual self-criticism carries on for 5 minutes)
Me: (Rolls eyes) I also have the same problem ok......
Jen: At least your hair is straight and your skin is good.... Not like me.. Acne
Me: At least you don't have half the world hating you and taking advantage of you and then call you fat. You're stick thin, something they like..
Jen: My legs are too bony...
Me: Let's just come to a conclusion lah
Jen: Ya. I hate myself.
Me: I guess I am hating myself too (mumbles to self 'because I cannot tell you straight to the face about your problem, I am frustrated... grrr....')
Jen: Har??!
Me: Nothing la. Just reprimanding myself for not being able to do something.
Jen: Good. Keep it up. One day you will realize your mistakes and deal with it
Me: (adui...)
From this lenghty conversation (words modified a little but storyline is still the same) I saw something I didn't see before...
Myself in the past. Always arguing with 1001 other idealistic and pessimistic people. Our different thoughts.... I always wanted to live in this priceless utopia where only happiness loomed everyday and cursed my wretched life for being cursed. And needless to say, it really felt wretched and broken, shattered and cursed.
But after getting a very understanding person like Matt, I began to see things in a different light. It was more like, "You must make a decision on your own. Must make sure what you do, you will be able to bear the consequences". I remembered what Ernie once said, "whatever choice you make, there will be consequences" and Annie told me (my little student), "no decision is also a decision, right teacher?". Mash these two together, one from a serial entrepreneur and another from a young 8 year old child. I saw something I never saw before.
"Do not sit on a fence. Make a decision and face it. Either way you take, there are consequences"
You are darn right!
And apparently, I have been wasting 22/23 years of life just trying to decode something that was tough but yet, always in front of me. What the hell is equality? What the hell is fairness?
Nothing in this world is fair. But of course, it all boils down to our personal characteristics and the way we handle a situation. Sometimes its like the times in our class where our teacher will hand us a 'situation' and we are supposed to resolve the issue. it is also like this. You don't know what will come. Some, because of your mistake/decision and most of the time, it happened because of another person's action.
You are defined by the way you handle the situation itself. If my friends do not believe in my ability to do A, B and C, I have a choice of walking away and give the middle finger (my ultimate favorite but naaah. Got past that already), I can stay and convince them with words and do nothing after that. Or show them what I am worth by providing the needed 'results'. And so far, I guess I want to maintain the positivity of the outcome of my actions. And yes, you get alot of sick and jealous people trying to 'doubt' and 'cast dark shadows' unto you and your ability because of inferiority complex. But would that really matter in the long run, if you are good? Not really! After all, they might be just a tiny speck of dust. And whoever say that everyone in the world likes Oprah Winfrey and whoever said that everyone in the world hates Simon Cowell?
We have different things in life. Live life well. Love each other. Help if you can. Say thank you and give credits to those who did their part to help you. Encourage each other. Give before you receive. Trust yourself first before giving trust to others. And trust others first before you expect them to trust you. Understand other people's way of life, differences in cultures and expectations.
Give before you receive. Ask if you do not know. Help another person if he or she does not know what to do. Ask what you can do for the world instead of asking what the world can do for you (Thanks Puan Gracie for this memorable phrase during the wonderful days in IJ Convent JB. Hope ur recovering well). Love everyone like they are your flesh and blood. Look out for one another. Stand up for your friends if they are righteous. Pull them aside and slowly explain to them their mistakes if they have done something wrong. Do not humiliate others in public. You will never know that one day this person will wind up being your boss/your child's teacher/ or whoever who has the power to do it unto you like how you did to him. Be courteous, help anyone who needs help and expect no help in return for expectations will make you hungry for recognition, which in turn makes you bitter and unhappy.
Treat human beings as human beings. To err is man, to forgive is divine. Do not overload them with YOUR IDEALS and YOUR EVERYTHING. One day you will realize that everyone will start dressing like you or end up backstabbing you because you always acted like a little emperor and show off that you are the best in town. It doesn't work (-.-)'''
Our life is a big experiment. We meet many types of people. Those who are upright good and righteous. Those who are conceited and selfish. Those who are foolish and gullible. Those who are too kind-hearted. Those who are soft and easily bullied. Those who are weak. Those who are incompetent. Those who do not want to work hard. Those who are big bullies and tyrants. Those who thinks either too highly or lowly of themselves. Those who gambles their life away. Those who are evil and unforgiving. Those who are loving and adoringly lovable.
We can choose to be anything we want to be. We can use what others 'bestowed' upon us back unto them as revenge is always something sweet. But can our little hearts take the consequences of our actions?
It is always that little part of 'conscience' in our hearts that will remind us that we've gone too far. The voice within that will keep us on the right side of the bed, do something that we will not regret and that one little part that reprimands us for doing something wrong. Without that part, we are nothing but a nation filled with bloated and sleeping people.
Decision is in our hands and in every decision you make (be a boss, be an employee, be a housewife etc), there are bound to be consequences of our actions. Step up to it, brace yourself and go through that one hurdle. Once you've passed the first mark, the following ones becomes easier. Practice makes perfect.
Be a human being. Make mistakes. Learn from mistakes. Forgive one another. Don't forget all the things you did, especially wrong and bad ones. And anyway and anyhow, just lead your life where you know that you can just leave at any time because you have no more regrets in life for you've done all you can and the little voice in your heart says "peace".
People Politics
I would not say I am an expert or a total noob in this field. But I guess over the last year and a few months of this year, I learnt a lot about the nature of human beings.
Culture plays a huge role on our reaction and acceptance to something. And like it or not, we have only ourselves and our upbringing to blame because we didn't know and imitated others.
"Monkey see, monkey do..."
Probably this might not really apply to everyone, but this really applied to me in my life.
I always wondered why some people can talk to another person in a very negative tone and give it to him/her in the face but the other person just bends down and accepts. So does that mean that we, when we were brought up in such an environment will think that this is the right way to do things?
Yes and No...
It is not entirely a YES but neither it is a NO. If you are young, naive and innocent, oblivious to what's right and wrong, of course imitating our parents actions and reactions = NORMAL activity. How did we learn to walk, run, climb trees etc..... We picked the speech and language up through daily interaction. We study and gain more knowledge from our teachers. We enrich ourselves by indulging in more National Geographic magazines and documentaries.
But if we carry our 'habits' since we were young till the day we are liable for our actions (18 years or 21 years and above), and if we KNOW that it is not right, what do we do?
Isn't that a struggle we all face? I love tea and my bf swears by coffee in his daily life. He drinks almost 5 cups a day and even before sleeping, he takes coffee. I seldom take my tea. But does that justify that what he did was wrong and what I did was right?
I love life. Its where we live in the gray area and our actions are judged based on other people's personal yardsticks.
And I learnt that if they say, "Michelle, you can be honest with me. You can tell me off one if I did something wrong. I can take it one! Don't worry!!!", please do not believe in this. I learnt it the hard way. Never give real feedback to people who cannot accept that they are no good. And same to myself as it is the same as to others. I also don't like it if people whom I am not so close comes up to me and points a finger at my flat nose and tell me 'because of this nose, you don't look pretty.. go for plastic surgery lah!'. So, I shall not even bother to tell anyone the truth unless I am a subject matter expert.
But of course I am not discouraging people to tell the truth. But do it smartly. Frame your words nicely but give them the double edged sword to wake them up gently but stabbingly painful that they learn. But never, please, never put your heart and soul to destroying that person who did something hurting to you. It makes you cloaked with anger, hatred and the force will turn to the dark side (uh oh.. sounds familiar aye?).
Sigh... People politics, inequality, etc... It will still continue till long after we are all dead. 2012, I am awaiting the day we all depart from our living hell.
Culture plays a huge role on our reaction and acceptance to something. And like it or not, we have only ourselves and our upbringing to blame because we didn't know and imitated others.
"Monkey see, monkey do..."
Probably this might not really apply to everyone, but this really applied to me in my life.
I always wondered why some people can talk to another person in a very negative tone and give it to him/her in the face but the other person just bends down and accepts. So does that mean that we, when we were brought up in such an environment will think that this is the right way to do things?
Yes and No...
It is not entirely a YES but neither it is a NO. If you are young, naive and innocent, oblivious to what's right and wrong, of course imitating our parents actions and reactions = NORMAL activity. How did we learn to walk, run, climb trees etc..... We picked the speech and language up through daily interaction. We study and gain more knowledge from our teachers. We enrich ourselves by indulging in more National Geographic magazines and documentaries.
But if we carry our 'habits' since we were young till the day we are liable for our actions (18 years or 21 years and above), and if we KNOW that it is not right, what do we do?
Isn't that a struggle we all face? I love tea and my bf swears by coffee in his daily life. He drinks almost 5 cups a day and even before sleeping, he takes coffee. I seldom take my tea. But does that justify that what he did was wrong and what I did was right?
I love life. Its where we live in the gray area and our actions are judged based on other people's personal yardsticks.
And I learnt that if they say, "Michelle, you can be honest with me. You can tell me off one if I did something wrong. I can take it one! Don't worry!!!", please do not believe in this. I learnt it the hard way. Never give real feedback to people who cannot accept that they are no good. And same to myself as it is the same as to others. I also don't like it if people whom I am not so close comes up to me and points a finger at my flat nose and tell me 'because of this nose, you don't look pretty.. go for plastic surgery lah!'. So, I shall not even bother to tell anyone the truth unless I am a subject matter expert.
But of course I am not discouraging people to tell the truth. But do it smartly. Frame your words nicely but give them the double edged sword to wake them up gently but stabbingly painful that they learn. But never, please, never put your heart and soul to destroying that person who did something hurting to you. It makes you cloaked with anger, hatred and the force will turn to the dark side (uh oh.. sounds familiar aye?).
Sigh... People politics, inequality, etc... It will still continue till long after we are all dead. 2012, I am awaiting the day we all depart from our living hell.
Selangor
Being here in Selangor for a bit more than 3 years really changed my mind about the craziness of this state. Or more like I was in Cheras (DBKL's jurisdiction, so not really Selangor but stilllll... who cares?)
This one thought plagued my mind for the entire February...
What's there to do in Selangor?
Eat
Shop
Work
Eat more
Shop more
Watch movie
Shop more
Work for more money
Slave for money
Spend money
Sleep
Eat
Sleep
Spend money
Eat more expensive thing
Go out with gf/bf
Eat more
Sleep....
This list will go on and on.. what can we really do here?
This one thought plagued my mind for the entire February...
What's there to do in Selangor?
Eat
Shop
Work
Eat more
Shop more
Watch movie
Shop more
Work for more money
Slave for money
Spend money
Sleep
Eat
Sleep
Spend money
Eat more expensive thing
Go out with gf/bf
Eat more
Sleep....
This list will go on and on.. what can we really do here?
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
My playlist for the whole of CNY (Day 1 to Day 3) 2010
I admit, we had a good CNY celebration this year, although things sometimes (in fact, more often than not) got a little lonely without my bebe around... so what did I do? As usual, I drowned myself with lotsa music and movies. But speaking of music and movies, here's a list of the top-10 songs/sounds and top-10 movies/videos that I encountered during this period...
AUDIO (in no particular order of preference/frequency):
AUDIO (in no particular order of preference/frequency):
- Stupid moon travelers and red firecrackers at night while I'm trying to sleep
- Boyzone's "A Different Beat" album
- R.E.M.'s "Document" album
- My aunties asking me when is my turn to get married
- Scorpion's "Ballads" album (listened to it throughout my journey to Muar)
- Plock's soundtrack (both Elaine and Mom trying to outdo each other and Michelle in this rather interesting Facebook game)
- Korn's "See You On The Other Side" album
- Neighbour's kids yelling
- My "Waiting For A Star To Fall" ringtone (because bebe and I called each other frequently)
- Dameone's "Dad... dad... I'm your precious cargo x3" (ARGGGHH!!)
- Back to the Future (Parts I, II and III) - really cool movie trilogy there!
- Jackass 2 (The Movie)
- Herbie: Fully Loaded (played on Channel 5)
- The Lion Dance in BP Mall that I recorded with my mobile phone
- Where Got Ghost - Singaporean ghost comedy
- Shanghai Knights - we have Fann Wong and the hair-rebonding technique which was gaining popularity at that point in time
- Girly Man / Geli Mat - look them up on YouTube - Indian "Thriller" re-worded
- The new Yoga DVD I bought for my mom - I gave up trying to follow their postures not even 2 minutes into the video
- Hitch - Will Smith and the pickup techniques
- Evolution - David Duchovny, Sean William Scott and Julianne Moore - too bad the DVD screwed up halfway
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Chinese New Year SPECIAL! See who won a prize this time...
Boh Song ah? Come lah, lets go out and fight!
Anyway, been in a freaking GOOD MOOD here today. As well as to 'report' on the funny incidences during CNY.
Record Breaking FUNNYs that happened during Chinese New Year:
"What's a Prawn Star?"
Joke won by little Marcus, son of Mike Sia. Congratulations, you are invited to our future wedding!
"Nia seng"
Curse won by little Ivy Lim, daughter of Uncle Tiong and aunty Rosemary. You are too, invited as our VIP for our future wedding.
"HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, chao wei (bad word in Hokkien)"
Crazy aunty who cannot control her laughter, won by Eileen Lim, my crazy 'last' aunty. You will be treated to a nice cup of Chinese Tea during the 'pang teh' ceremony of our Chinese wedding after next year's CNY....
"Kangaroo patahkan shin guard Amar"
A silly Telegu song translated to English and BM, caught Michelle by her tail where she decided to infect people with the song, successfully making people 'remember' the song for awhile... (still can win ma, doesn't mean that its my own 'competition', i cannot win...)
"Gerek, Garlic..."
My one and only lovable Granny, trying to pronounce Deryk's name... which led to his 'Hokkien Name, Chao Wei'.... Guama wins a prize to be on the VETIP seat with us! (VETIP = very extremely totally important people)
"plueeeek"
Snowy, the big, huge and humongous St. Bernard of Uncle Peng (x2) and Aunty Mon Nee. He just flicked his tongue while closing his mouth and 5 bog blotches of saliva flew to my face, shirt and jeans... Yays! Yao sui! Got water! Good~~
Congratulations to all winner. Hope to see you guys on my next hall of fame!
Anyway, been in a freaking GOOD MOOD here today. As well as to 'report' on the funny incidences during CNY.
Record Breaking FUNNYs that happened during Chinese New Year:
"What's a Prawn Star?"
Joke won by little Marcus, son of Mike Sia. Congratulations, you are invited to our future wedding!
"Nia seng"
Curse won by little Ivy Lim, daughter of Uncle Tiong and aunty Rosemary. You are too, invited as our VIP for our future wedding.
"HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, chao wei (bad word in Hokkien)"
Crazy aunty who cannot control her laughter, won by Eileen Lim, my crazy 'last' aunty. You will be treated to a nice cup of Chinese Tea during the 'pang teh' ceremony of our Chinese wedding after next year's CNY....
"Kangaroo patahkan shin guard Amar"
A silly Telegu song translated to English and BM, caught Michelle by her tail where she decided to infect people with the song, successfully making people 'remember' the song for awhile... (still can win ma, doesn't mean that its my own 'competition', i cannot win...)
"Gerek, Garlic..."
My one and only lovable Granny, trying to pronounce Deryk's name... which led to his 'Hokkien Name, Chao Wei'.... Guama wins a prize to be on the VETIP seat with us! (VETIP = very extremely totally important people)
"plueeeek"
Snowy, the big, huge and humongous St. Bernard of Uncle Peng (x2) and Aunty Mon Nee. He just flicked his tongue while closing his mouth and 5 bog blotches of saliva flew to my face, shirt and jeans... Yays! Yao sui! Got water! Good~~
Congratulations to all winner. Hope to see you guys on my next hall of fame!
Monday, February 15, 2010
Gua rasa la... I think la...
This really has got to stop...
Why? 2 of the girls whom I love the most in my life have been given the "usual" treatment that they always get.
First, Lim Michelle, my bebe, whom I'll be marrying end of this year.
Second, Elaine Sia, my one and only sister.
I won't go on elaborating what happened to them. But what I would like to note here is that in this world, we just can't live without evil, can we? Just like what Father Lawrence said when we were out for dinner with him.
My late father's favorite verse goes, "If you've got NOTHING GOOD TO SAY, just SHUT THE HELL UP!"
Why can't everyone talk about things that are more constructive, such as the economy in the world today, or the latest invention in the IT industry. Even topics about who's gonna win this next American Idol would a good topic to fucking gossip about compared to whatever people are talking about nowadays.
Just think, if everyone started talking about things that are more constructive, don't you think we would become a brighter nation, more aware of things that are happening around us, and thus leading to a more enlightened bunch of people?
Gossip is evil, dear readers. So is calling people stuff that grievously hurts them. I do not need people to tell me that I'm useless, or that I'm a what-fucking-ever-shit-you-can-think-of. Remember the commandment about "not bearing false witnesses against thy neighbor", commandment number fucking 8??? Oh yes, senseless and uncalled-for insults and name calling falls under that too, THANKS FOR ASKING!
So, conclusion? STOP BEING A HYPOCRITE AND SEDAR SIKIT DOSA ENGKORANG NIH!! I believe in reincarnation. You may be a beautiful ass of a prissy popular girl calling a poor ugly girl "NAH NAH YOU'RE UGLY"... may you die a horrible death, and when you're finally thrown back into the globe, you'll be born as a girl who wears size 40 jeans. A-fucking-men!
Why? 2 of the girls whom I love the most in my life have been given the "usual" treatment that they always get.
First, Lim Michelle, my bebe, whom I'll be marrying end of this year.
Second, Elaine Sia, my one and only sister.
I won't go on elaborating what happened to them. But what I would like to note here is that in this world, we just can't live without evil, can we? Just like what Father Lawrence said when we were out for dinner with him.
My late father's favorite verse goes, "If you've got NOTHING GOOD TO SAY, just SHUT THE HELL UP!"
Why can't everyone talk about things that are more constructive, such as the economy in the world today, or the latest invention in the IT industry. Even topics about who's gonna win this next American Idol would a good topic to fucking gossip about compared to whatever people are talking about nowadays.
Just think, if everyone started talking about things that are more constructive, don't you think we would become a brighter nation, more aware of things that are happening around us, and thus leading to a more enlightened bunch of people?
Gossip is evil, dear readers. So is calling people stuff that grievously hurts them. I do not need people to tell me that I'm useless, or that I'm a what-fucking-ever-shit-you-can-think-of. Remember the commandment about "not bearing false witnesses against thy neighbor", commandment number fucking 8??? Oh yes, senseless and uncalled-for insults and name calling falls under that too, THANKS FOR ASKING!
So, conclusion? STOP BEING A HYPOCRITE AND SEDAR SIKIT DOSA ENGKORANG NIH!! I believe in reincarnation. You may be a beautiful ass of a prissy popular girl calling a poor ugly girl "NAH NAH YOU'RE UGLY"... may you die a horrible death, and when you're finally thrown back into the globe, you'll be born as a girl who wears size 40 jeans. A-fucking-men!
DOMO
I want to be like Domo...
Cuz he has 8 sharp cannibal-like teeth that swears upon his future grave that he will tear you apart.
How cool is tat?
Call me fat and I SWEAR I WILL LOSE MY TEMPER
Seriously, these things have gotta stop.
Man! You don't know the adverse psychological trauma you all are causing and hurting me.
Do you even understand how it feels like to be called FAT when you are not even FAT or not even qualified to be called one to begin with?
And make this worse, you get strangers who knows your boyfriend and suddenly you become a target and she calls you fat? I haven't even pointed at her 'non-existence' boobs and laugh at her inability to have beautiful breasts to flaunt! Grrr.....
Bottom line is, why can't I be left alone?
Probably they think it is FUN to sit in front of the laptop at 3.18am (now) typing away while wiping tears off my already sepet eyes. And the next day, endure the humiliation when people ask me 'eh, why your eyes so bengkak one ah? you cry izzit?'.... Oh yes, I did. I cried. I cried shit load! Ten buckets of your asshole's droppings if that pleases you.
On one hand, people tell me to 'lose those lashes, you look naturally beautiful, just be yourself' and the same people (or sometimes, idiots) tell me, 'you are fat la, lose some weight'. Eh, come on. First you said my sepet eyes are beautiful (when half of the world already disagreed hands down) and then you come over and tell me that I am fat? So which part of 'be yourself' I have gotten wrong?
Instead of being a biatch sitting there/standing there and commenting on my weight/ugly eyes, why don't you do something nice like:
1. Buy me a nice 3 year membership with True Fitness
2. Send me for Mary France Bodyline slimming sessions
3. Buy me a treadmill so I can do cardio all day long till I die of not enough fats
4. Make a fairy wish come true and I will become as proportionately beautiful and desirable like Barbie doll or some crap like that
5. ALWAYS go to the gym with me and work out with me and ensure I lose all those fats.
6. Stop telling me 'it's for your own good' when seriously, it is just plainly useless word. I would prefer the rude way of just plainly SHUTTING UP!
Thank you for your kind understanding.
Now leave me alone.
Man! You don't know the adverse psychological trauma you all are causing and hurting me.
Do you even understand how it feels like to be called FAT when you are not even FAT or not even qualified to be called one to begin with?
And make this worse, you get strangers who knows your boyfriend and suddenly you become a target and she calls you fat? I haven't even pointed at her 'non-existence' boobs and laugh at her inability to have beautiful breasts to flaunt! Grrr.....
Bottom line is, why can't I be left alone?
Probably they think it is FUN to sit in front of the laptop at 3.18am (now) typing away while wiping tears off my already sepet eyes. And the next day, endure the humiliation when people ask me 'eh, why your eyes so bengkak one ah? you cry izzit?'.... Oh yes, I did. I cried. I cried shit load! Ten buckets of your asshole's droppings if that pleases you.
On one hand, people tell me to 'lose those lashes, you look naturally beautiful, just be yourself' and the same people (or sometimes, idiots) tell me, 'you are fat la, lose some weight'. Eh, come on. First you said my sepet eyes are beautiful (when half of the world already disagreed hands down) and then you come over and tell me that I am fat? So which part of 'be yourself' I have gotten wrong?
Instead of being a biatch sitting there/standing there and commenting on my weight/ugly eyes, why don't you do something nice like:
1. Buy me a nice 3 year membership with True Fitness
2. Send me for Mary France Bodyline slimming sessions
3. Buy me a treadmill so I can do cardio all day long till I die of not enough fats
4. Make a fairy wish come true and I will become as proportionately beautiful and desirable like Barbie doll or some crap like that
5. ALWAYS go to the gym with me and work out with me and ensure I lose all those fats.
6. Stop telling me 'it's for your own good' when seriously, it is just plainly useless word. I would prefer the rude way of just plainly SHUTTING UP!
Thank you for your kind understanding.
Now leave me alone.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
My turn to say this instead...
Yes, Mr. Sia...
Its been barely 3 hours (plus) but yeah, I am also missing u a lot.
Silly me, thought I could stand 4 days without u, apparently I doubt my ability to even stand for 5 minutes. Hehehe. Sorry yeah, when flood gates were prematurely opened and made u feel so sad too.
But nevertheless, I hope your days with Mum and Sis would be great! At least u still have a family who cares and love you, rite? So loved... aaw....
And I'd be waiting for u here in JB till u come rescue me from BOREDOM without u.
And I wish I can say this "GOOD RIDDANCE" but apparently, I cannot because I am not Danielle screaming at Dameone.... She hates him, and I don't hate you...
Aah... back to takde-bebe life for 4 days till you come over. We'll have breakfast together, go crazy with my crazy little cousins and have more fun playing nonsensical scissors, paper, duck* and stone.
Till then, I miss you and I can't wait to sniff sniff you like a doggie trying to sniff out a miao....
Love my miao cat Sia Choon Howe!!! (and I really miss u lor.. how?)
Its been barely 3 hours (plus) but yeah, I am also missing u a lot.
Silly me, thought I could stand 4 days without u, apparently I doubt my ability to even stand for 5 minutes. Hehehe. Sorry yeah, when flood gates were prematurely opened and made u feel so sad too.
But nevertheless, I hope your days with Mum and Sis would be great! At least u still have a family who cares and love you, rite? So loved... aaw....
And I'd be waiting for u here in JB till u come rescue me from BOREDOM without u.
And I wish I can say this "GOOD RIDDANCE" but apparently, I cannot because I am not Danielle screaming at Dameone.... She hates him, and I don't hate you...
Aah... back to takde-bebe life for 4 days till you come over. We'll have breakfast together, go crazy with my crazy little cousins and have more fun playing nonsensical scissors, paper, duck* and stone.
Till then, I miss you and I can't wait to sniff sniff you like a doggie trying to sniff out a miao....
Love my miao cat Sia Choon Howe!!! (and I really miss u lor.. how?)
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